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Growing. Growing. Gone.

I've grown alot. I'm not bragging just stating a fact that is relevant to me. Here are 3 ways that I know I have grown as a person:

1. Most opinions don't effect me.
I used to really care how I was perceived publicly. The way I dressed, the way I wore my hair. My weight. The activities I engaged in.  My resume. I cared what people thought about my choices. How I spent my money. I cared about being too ghetto or too black. I cared about being too much in the wrong place. Even as I put on a IDGAF persona outwardly I still cared a great deal. And it influenced how I operated. I now engage in educational discourse without shirking back and can take constructive (and not so constructive) criticism without feeling hurt for hours and changing things to appeal to the critiquer. That's totally different for me.

2. I don't overwhelm as easily.
Stress kicked my butt for a long time. Yes I still experience stress, but not to the degree I once did. Stress was debilitating. The sense of overwhelm would take over my entire psyche and I'd lash out or cry. Now I am much more measured. The circumstances that once stressed me simply don't matter as much. For those that do matter I use coping strategies to navigate the feeling. I can identify when a situation will be particularly stressful and try to plan my way out of the feeling. Some things, situations, hell people just won't cause me to spiral into a tizzy. It's fine. It's ok. It's alright. If I'm alive after it then I can overcome it. No person or situation deserves my peace. Period.

3. I don't snap as much. I could cut someone down with my words, looks or actions in  millisecond. Now I just don't. Most times it's not worth it so I choose inner and outer peace. Definitely a work in progress.

This growth is over the course of the last few months. My life hasn't particularly experienced any huge changes, but a whole lot of small ones that have lead me to shift my perspective. I'm loving my new outlook on life. Still growing, but I'm really enjoying the direction I am moving in.

Peace and blessings darlings❤

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