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Complex

I'm full of contradictions, but so is everyone else. No one is linear. One way all the time. A straight line. I am working my way through all of my intricacies and learning to accept myself the way I am. I find that I fall in love with things easily. I enjoy the feeling of liking something so much that it affects me deep down in my core. It's less stress for me that way. With all my many titles I enjoy being so very different and representing so many different things. Politically I have very liberal beliefs and some conservative views as well. As a wife I am soft and submissive yet firm and boisterous in some areas. Financially I spend frivolously yet am overly consumed with saving money. Some students fear me, others adore me, many both. I'm funny (like hilarious to myself) but hella serious most times. I'm loud as hell and shy. I'm family oriented but crave alone time. I yearn for stability yet spontaneity sets fire to my soul. I'm an adrenaline junkie but scared of high stakes thrills. I believe it's possible to love two people at the same time. I believe in the 2nd amendment and gun safety/less gun access. I want everything and nothing all at the same time. Crazy? No. Just human. And that makes me complex. I watch social media posts roast people all the time for having seemingly contradictory views and actions. Humans by nature are complex. It's not fair to judge people period. People are complicated. Life is too.

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