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Nondescript Sick Fall 2021

I have been sick for the past 6 weeks. Covid symptoms without covid. I have taken no less than 6 Covid test rapid and PCR at Urgent care, the emergency room and at work all have been negative.

I hate this. I have experienced every symptom known to man. Long lasting deep coughs, difficulty breathing, sneezing, nausea, headaches, vomiting, inability to sleep, extreme fatigue, fever, chills, whole body aches, chest heaviness, overall exhaustion. All intermittently over the course of a month and a half. I've been to my primary, urgent care and the Emergency Room all for them to diagnose me with the randomest upper repository issues. I've been diagnosed with bronchitis, an ear infection, the flu and seasonal allergies gone arry. The Emergency department basically said that I have a non descript upper respiratory infection and that I need to rest. They gave me an inhaler because I may be developing asthma. At 38, because life. I was told that my cough can last up to 6 weeks and there nothing they can do but treat symptoms. It's frustrating 😒

I can't teach because talking for more than 2 minutes reduces me to a coughing fit. I'm not supposed to work with any cold symptoms but how can I make a living being home with a nondescript diagnosis? I'm finding myself getting sadder and sadder everyday as I try to battle an illness that doesn't seem real but I feel it everyday. Some days are bad where I just lay in the bed, other days I feel like a normal person with a simple cold. I'm getting to the point where it feels like its in my head, but then I cough and sneeze and start to cry from pain. It's all too much for me to process. These physical feelings have been impacting my mental health. I am isolating myself, from everyone. I barely reach out or go out. I've become close to a recluse with the exception of immediate family. I don't want to be around people or even talk to people like this.

I feel especially bad for my family. I couldn't pull off Christmas decor like I usually do. I could barely cook or drive. I've been a shell of myself. I just want to be better. I hate being the sick parent; the sick wife. I believe my immune system is compromised since being isolated for a year and then being reintroduced to the world and all its germs this fall. The heightened sense of catching Covid, new variants, school/work shutting down, new protocols, booster shots and life are beating me down. Right now I am detoxing my body. Water, lemons, ACV, vitamins, herbs, eliminating red meat and limiting sugars. I stopped really drinking alcohol a while ago.

I'm clearing my mental and spiritual spaces as well. Reading, writing, absorbing content that is enriching to my soul and finishing projects I started long ago.

I have time but even if I didn't I'd take this time because I can no longer feel like this.

Give me some suggestions. I'm listening. 

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  1. Hey Niece! We Love U and GOD Does too.

    Get 2 lemons, 2 limes, 3 inches of Ginger and 6 tea bags (what ever kind you like) peel the lemons limes and ginger, make 12 ounces of tea, blend them together, drain them and drink it as hot as you can. I promise you, you will start feel better by the next day.

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