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Failure

In 2016 I applied to the University of Pennsylvania for a Masters level dual degree program. I was scared to apply as I carried feelings of self doubt coupled with the fact that it is an Ivy League school. I was in my mid 30s, with a husband, 2 children and a strenous full time job, not to mention an undergraduate GPA under 3.0. Needless to say I was waitlisted, then denied admission and I was beyond upset. I sulked and then moved forward in my regular life, but the denial sparked something within me. I wanted to prove to myself that I could be accepted. I waited a year before reapplying and during that time I bolstered my profile. I added new initiatives to my resume and conquered new projects. I sought out new references and focused my new application on my growth,vulnerability and how I'd be an asset to the program. You know what happened? I got accepted. Making those changes showed me that I can do anything. That failure pushed me to go deeper to prove to myself that I am capable of what I desire. 

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